Today is the First Day of the Rest of My Life.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.

We were like silly kids together. I am told by my friends that I put to much into the relationship. I feel like that's right after realizing how upset I was. How upset I am. Its getting better and my friends are really supportive, but I cant help thinking a lot of things.
He's right to an extent, but no one is perfect either and instead of just gathering myself and moving on I am picking apart all of the things in the relationship and all of the things that I did. I guess that's what all girls do: try to pick themselves apart. Normally its that, or they blame the guy. I am trying to not do either, but I think I could have punched someone in the throat.


I would say, "I should do the one year challenge now", but I think for the time being I can't bring myself to get out of this funk and if a guy wants to get to know me I will let him.


Maybe I am too selfish to have a relationship right now. I don't know how things will get better, but there's no where to go but up from here.